Sunday, December 30, 2012

Never ignore coincidence... unless you're busy

I'd had plans to go out, but they fell through. As I mulled over whether or not to go and see other friends at the usual haunt, I had a melancholy Massive Attack song in my head. Eventually, the decision came to go ahead and pop out for a bit. When I arrived, C & M were there, whom I never get to see after they had a baby. Bonus points for the evening, achieved. A few minutes later, either deja or precia vu set in, as the very same Massive Attack song played over the stereo system. When a coincidence like that happens, I figure that I'm where I need to be, when I need to be there, and something important will come of it. All that figuring led me to mulling, and the mulling led me to considering someone I've been giving much consideration of late. She's a certain special someone whom I hope holds me in the same regard, but she's also been going through a bit of a rough patch. Obviously (if you are in my braincase) this made good ole Rainer Maria Rilke's Letters to a Young Poet stroll through my synapses.

"Learning time is always a long, secluded time, and therefore loving, for a long time ahead and far into life, is solitude - a heightened and deepened kind of aloneness for the person who loves. Loving does not at first mean merging, surrendering, and uniting with another person - for what would a union of two people who are unclarified, unfinished, and still incoherent? It is a high inducement for the individual to ripen, to become the world in themselves for the sake of another person; it is a great, demanding claim, perhaps that for which human lives are barely yet large enough."
  
 That pretty much sums it up. I have a platinum card carrying crush,
but as much as I'd like to move to the next level of metaphor, we're both still ripening, and there's little else worse than an unripe peanut.

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